Snot Filled Prayer

Well here I am again. Another website, another blog. If you are new to me and who I am let me just tell you, I have tried this so many times. I have started and stopped, I think three or four times before this. Knowing that God is calling me to this but for some reason I let life get in the way. I do good for a few weeks maybe months if I am lucky and then I let things just get in the way. I let the thoughts creep in that no one reads blogs anymore. My grammar sucks. I am ramble. ALL. THE. THINGS.

*Sidenote - if you want a perfeclty written blog, this is not it. So either you need to stop here or if that doesnt bother you, keep reading :)

Then, BOOM, God asked me who I was doing it for. Was I doing it for the world or for Him. Was I trying to please people instead of being obedient to what He is asking me to do. Well that was a slap to my face. It hurt but it needed to.

Yesterday morning I sat with Jesus while the rest of the house was sleeping. I sobbed and as the tears flowed down my face I reallized that I was relying on worldy things, than relying on Him. And then He showed me other areas of my life that I needed to repent in and fully let Him take control. I knew exaclty what He was getting at. 

In full transparency, I SUCK at managing our money. Like truly and royally suck and yesterday morning I cried out to Jesus. I asked Him to help me. I begged for Him to help me. Help me learn more, help me spend less. Help me. Help me. Help me. Y'all I literally had snot running down my face as I fully let Him in. I let go of trying to control it all. I always tried to find the fix, even if it was putting more stress on me. More jobs. More hats. It was just never ending. And then I realized that I didnt need more money, I just needed to learn how to manage what He has given us better. Do you know how freeing that is? It was definitely freeing for me.

So here we are, day one of figuring it all out and I am inviting you along for the ride. This goes far beyond finances and writing a blog. It goes deeper than watching what I spend and typing words on this keyboard. It's finally letting Him have control of every area of my life. Repenting for truly not trusting Him and asking for forgivness. And when I say repent I dont mean a simple prayer, I mean a RADICAL LIFE CHANGE. Truly repenting and turning the other way.

'“Yet even now,” declares the Lord, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning; and rend your hearts and not your garments.” Return to the Lord your God, for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love; and he relents over disaster.' Joel 2: 12-13

So are you ready? Are you ready to fully return to Him. I mean FULLY. Not halfway, but alllllll the way. We can do this together.

I can't promise that I will be here everyday but I do promise to be here. You may get a devotion. You may get a life update or maybe even a recipe or a house project that I have been working on. It will be a guessing game but I am excited. I do want to add some takeaways, a challenge possibly! Find those at the end of each blog!

Ok, I feel refreshed and ready to jump in.

See you next time friend. Enjoy this day and remember to be grateful for every breath and beat that He gives you. Without Him we are nothing ❤️

-Morgan

This weeks challenge: Cut out Starbucks or whatever you may buy daily or several days a week. You aren't alone in this, I am right here beside you doing the same thing! Heres to homemade coffee!! CHEERS ☕️